Wednesday, December 17, 2008
We left Emma for the first time with Matt's mom for a few days to go to Chicago. The trip was Matt's Christmas present to me, but I assumed that Emma would be coming with us. Then Matt told me that we were going to see Wicked, which of course, I was thrilled about since I've wanted to see it forever, but kind of queazy about since Emma is a little too young to appreciate musical theater. I guess that meant she wasn't joining us, much to Matt's excitement (a romantic getaway woohoo!) and my chagrin (3 DAYS away from my baby??). Matt finally convinced me that it would be fine to leave her behind, and we've been having a GREAT, much needed time together. I thought I was handling being away from her pretty well until last night at about 1:00 I woke up and started running around the room yelling, "Where's Emma!?! Where's Emma!?!" and frantically searching for her. Poor Matt was baffled (if you've ever experienced Matt waking in the middle of the night you know the look) and frantically looking at me saying, "Ah ahh, I don't know, I don't know." Finally, I remebered that she was home with Matt's mom, explained this to Matt who just looked at me and immediately fell back down asleep. Phew, crisis averted.
I mean, I'm not the only mommy that's ever done this...right!?
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
We were pretty excited about finding a house. We found a couple that were really nice and that we could afford; I mean, they were within our $20,000 less than what the bank said we could afford. So, we made an offer. We had discussed with our realtor what would probably happen. We low-balled them, expecting a counter-offer. I was super excited; Matt was super queazy. The scenario played out as we expected, except the part where we counter-offered their counter-offer didn't go as planned. There was no counter-(counter?) offer from us.
Matt crunched the numbers again in our budget. Pretty much a chunk of our down payment was going to have to go to the ridiculously high (in a newbie's eyes anyway) closing costs and interest rates had just gone up. Basically, if we were to purchase this house for our original budget price, we'd be house poor.
I was not a happy girl (for various reasons which I need not get into :) ) and when all was said and done, our $20,000 under approved budget had dropped down to $45,000 less than what we were approved for. Thankfully, my husband is wiser than me (ok, I said it, let's not rub it in) when it comes to finances and chose to exam things further to keep us out of an ugly situation, but I can see how easy it can happen. There's so many other factors besides income and debt. When people lose sight of that and just see what they want, they find themselves in a pretty precarious situation.
So. we press on and keep searching. Though we just may have something in the works, partly due to a little help from Uncle Sam (funny how Republicans don't mind a little help from the government when it's in their best interest...ahem, ahem Matthew...) I'm not ready to get too excited yet though. I've already learned that lesson.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
She loved swinging at the park today with her new friends!
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
I think mothers are the strongest creatures on earth (Of course, I say this six months after becoming one myself). While making a baby takes two people, the responsibility of protecting and nourishing that baby falls on the woman. We do a job that no man, literally, could ever do. While women have so many options that those that came before us did not have, nothing comes easy for a woman. It is still a man’s world and breaking through the glass ceiling is still an unlikely task. The fact that our bodies are able to reproduce is one of the obstacles of making it in a man’s world.
This is the beautiful burden of womanhood.
Some face this fact by choice, others by surprise, while others by force. There is a certain power and freedom that men have from never having to face this. As women we have worked so hard for equality and rightly so; equal wages, opportunity, etc. However, the greatest thing that separates us from men is our ability to reproduce. This is also the most beautiful, amazing thing about being a woman.
We give life.
I have trouble understanding the pro-choice perspective because it just seems so ugly. The artistic beauty of a child being knit together inside a woman’s body is so incredible and destroying this seems like the ultimate lack of creativity. I can understand choosing not to raise a child, but I don’t understand choosing not to protect and provide a place for it to grow for nine months. I heard Emma’s heart beat for the first time at SIX weeks. At six months old, she’s the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.
Yes, we have rights. We've worked very, very hard for our rights. But, as women, isn't it the ultimate show of strength to set these rights aside? Doesn't humanity always shine the brightest when we choose to sacrifice? I think most people would agree that it’s best to choose love over hate, optimism over cynicism, giving over taking, creativity over status quo. At times we are asked to set our rights aside for the sake of another, to sacrifice our bodies (and I have the stretch marks to prove it!) which a man would never have to do, but it is the ultimate display of strength and dignity. As women, why would we ever choose less?
Thursday, October 9, 2008
We stopped in Athens to stay with Jay and Rachel. Emma was really excited to hang out with her buddy Sam too.
We planned to catch up with my dad on the highway, but unfortunately didn't catch up with him until the driveway.
The next picture should be of our new home, but wait, we don't have one yet. Shoot. I told Matt if we don't find one soon, I'll have to follow through with my professional traveler plan, and he'll have to start calling me Large Marge.
Monday, October 6, 2008
I know the whole area so well. We were driving the backroads into Cedarville this weekend, and I realized just how familiar it was. I'll miss the 40 minute drive through those country roads to go watch Tim play soccer or sit through a freaking endless day of grad class. I love (and hate) that everytime I go out shopping or to a restaurant I see an old student. I'll miss walking around Cox with Matt and going out for ice cream all the time (ok, we'll still do that in Florida). I'll miss our friends here and the fact that most of our best friends are within a day car ride if ever we need to see them.
I'm just growing sentimental in our last days here. It's strange to close this chapter of our lives because I don't really have any idea what this next one will be like. Regardless, tomorrow we pick up the moving truck and pack up the last 3 years of our lives together and drive them 17 hours down the road...in the opposite direction of NY...unless I hijack the truck...
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Since all our cooking utensils were packed up we had to go to the Garlic Festival at Cox.
We also finally made it to the Air Force Museum, which I've never been to in all my years in Dayton. I figured it was time. Emma was thrilled.
We also had Emma give rice cereal another try. She still isn't really a fan.
Matt's last day of work was Tuesday, so it's been really nice having him home these last few days. I've really appreciated how much he's helped out with Emma. She hasn't been the best sleeper this week, and he's gotten up with her in the wee hours of the morning to give me a break. It's fun to watch them together. Emma loves her daddy; she lights up whenever he comes into the room and will just stare at him with this smile on her face until he picks her up. He can always make her laugh too. It's pretty sweet.
It was Homecoming weekend at Cedarville this weekend too, which always means a lot of friends and family in town. This year was my 5 year reunion. What the heck?? When did I get so old? Have I really been out of college for that long?
Friday, September 26, 2008
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all aloooong
And I am FLAAAWED, but I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself..."
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Ok- one problem.
Emma and I rarely leave the house. Seriously. We only have one car right now, and Matt has a job outside of the house, sooo...yeah. We hang out here most days. Thankfully, this has actually worked to our advantage because it has forced me to buckle down and pack. However, it also mean that I don't have super cute pics of Emma out on the town. I could post pictures of all our travels this summer, but I think that would be poor blog etiquette. One must live in the present in the blogosphere. So, here's a few pictures of Emma just hangin' at home...
She's wondering why I brought a camera in to get her up from her nap.